BWWM Billionaire: His Love (Alpha Billionaire Interracial Love) (The McShannons Series) (African American Contemporary Short Stories) by Veronica Maxim

Author:Veronica Maxim [Maxim, Veronica]
Language: eng
Format: epub, mobi
Tags: Literature & Fiction, United States, African American, Urban, Romance, Multicultural, Genre Fiction, Women's Fiction, Multicultural & Interracial
Amazon: B0110NUHL2
Published: 2015-07-04T04:00:00+00:00

COLIN

I sat on the edge of the bed and listened to the only woman I ever loved…the only one I ever imagined a life with, walk out the door. I wanted to go after her…but wasn’t I about eight years too late? I let her walk away with my baby in her belly. She was just a kid. She was a kid who thought that I didn’t love her enough because I was too busy wrapped up in my own stupid, fucking life. I lay back on the bed and closed my eyes.

Off and on over the years I would allow myself to think about her and the life we could have had. Now there was a baby in there too. I felt wet tears at the corners of my eyes now. Would she still have lost the baby if I’d been with her? Possibly….but I would have been there for her. She wouldn’t have had to go through that alone.

She said I was too selfish to beg her to stay all of those years ago, and she was partly right. I was in that place where I was actually considering my father’s life. Because I was his son I felt entitled to certain things. I loved her, so I felt entitled to her love in return. Did I want to beg her to stay? Absolutely. Was that acceptable to my way of life at the time? Absolutely not. Braden McShannon’s boys didn’t beg for anything. They were given what they wanted, or they took it by force. But was that all that stopped me from begging her? No, not even close. I think...I think I would have had I thought I was good enough for her.

The truth was that at that time I was a thug…plain and simple. I was rich and spoiled, but that didn’t change the fact that I was a thug. It was what my father taught me how to be and it was what I thought lay before me for the rest of my life. I was too young at the time to even envision a way out.

I wanted her more than I’d ever wanted anything, even then. But I wasn’t going to beg her to stay with me. She might be surprised to know that it wasn’t because I thought I was too good…but because I didn’t think I was good enough. She deserved so much better than the kind of life my mother had…and even then I knew that.

Now things are so different. My father is out of my life. That life is in my past. I have a business I run with my brothers….legitimately. I have everything I need because I worked for it and not because I took it from anyone. Now, I deserved a woman like her…and for a second I thought that I was going to get a second chance. I reached for her pillow and breathed in the scent of her. Nothing makes you realize how much you love and appreciate someone than losing them.

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